Time...so little time

I wish I had more time to do the things I love to do. I wish I did not have to stress to make sure I work every single day so I can focus more on the good things I have in my life. I hate having to make an appointment JUST so I can do something that makes me happy. And then, have someone say something to stop that from happening.

I hate having to re-learn things too. I have a filter, I swear I do. But sense being on this meds, its gone. Or switched off. And I don't know where the on switch is. I see myself doing things that I dont like me doing, but no control to stop it. Its like the meds have taken away my control over myself and my actions. And I hate that. I regret things I am doing WHEN I am doing them and I try to stop, but I cannot. Very frustrating.

Another side affect, I have NO desire to eat any food at any point in time. When I do force myself to eat, I eat about 1/2 of what is served. And I normally eat 1/2 of what a normal person eats. So you take a meal you would eat, and eat only 1/4th of that and that is what i'm down to. And 2 meals a day. I really try for 3 but its too much food. I have breakfast and dinner.

So, we are at 2 weeks on the meds. Energy is okay. I would not say its way up. It is higher than what it was but not anywhere near normal. The only 2 side affects that are bothering me are the ones listed above. In the big picture, they are really not that bad. But living this, its horrible. But I am also one that put really high expectations upon myself. Sometimes they are totally unachievable because I set the bar so high.  And I have never learned how to lower it so I can be happy with who I am.

Thank you to those reading this and following me on the journey and being so supportive. Most of you I could not do this without.

xoxo, T

So tired yet so busy

Yep... you read that title correctly! I'm very tired. Should be in bed. But have been so busy that i have not had time to spend with my honey. So i rented a movie (thank you Redbox!) and we watched it tonight. Well mostly watched it. I was working and watching at the same time. Which is what you get when you are with me! Multi-tasking queen bee.

I got to, Monday night, scrapbook for the first time in a few months! It was so much fun and I have missed it greatly. I'm going to be starting up my own group soon, so if any local people are intrested let me know. Once a month for a few hours... We all need a break like that!


Well short and sweet again!

xoxo, T

Its been a week!

And thinks are okay here! Working and have energy. Multi-tasking like normal, and still getting sleep! Woohooo....

Monday night I get to go scrapbooking for a few hours. It will be nice to get out of the house and be able to do that. :)

Short and sweet right now.

xoxo, T

Day 5

Well today sure has been a great day. More energy, more like the old me. Yes we are only on day 5 but so far... day 5 i'll keep! I miss being me. Full of energy and happy and not having to fake it. I'm now looking forward to each day as they come and with the hope that they are all like these.

Help Needed...

Well I have been really absent of late. That is because I was dealing with a lot of "health" issues. In less than a 2 month period of time I managed to put on 20lbs. No clue as to how. No increased eating or anything. And with that came decreased in energy and a drastic INCREASE in the need to sleep! Which is totally not me.

So I did what all normal people would do. I called the doctor. Made the appointment and went. The doctor had no idea as to why and requested blood work done. Did all of that and went back a week later. Still no real answers so she sent me to a blood dr to read the test. Two weeks later and he said he saw nothing! BACK to the doctor I went.

So she tells me the only thing that she can do is put me on an antidepressant (nope, not depressed) to help increase my energy and decrease the weight. Been on that for 4 days now. How much of a change... well the first 3 days it took all I could do to stay awake! I was asleep with in minutes of taking the pill and was out cold for hours. Today...day 4... was a lot groggy for the first 11/2 hours but got better. The afternoon I was feeling a lot more like myself. Energy, happy, and most of all not sleepy!

So hopefully that will do it. It will keep going in this direction we are hoping it to go in and I can be back to normal quickly. We shall see. What I think went wrong with me? I think my body has had enough of the stress that I have had being a single mom and trying to be wonder woman! My body is telling me to stop, take a break and re-coop.

xoxo, T

eeekkkk... a week late...better late than never

Right? Well this last few weeks has been a bit crazy. So here is a quick catch up.
My cake decoration class is over. January is done with and in the books. Working like crazy and just trying to keep up with everything! And now onto the pictures!

3rd cake decorating class, cupcakes

Just playing with cupcakes....these ones are chocolate fudge with strawberry filling 

Peanut butter cups cupcakes! Yum!

Stunning sunset on my way home from work. had to get this shot!

Final cake for the cake decorating class. Looked so much better in person 

the failure for the week. its at a local shopping center. been that way for months.

That is it for now....

xoxo, T

Two Weeks into 2011 and its been good

Another week is done and gone. It's going by pretty quickly, and for that I am surprised and yet not. Every day is another day, filled with a long list of things to do and never enough time to get any of it done. And with so much that is being done, hard to take a daily picture that shows what has happened. So I guess its a mix of both. I do the best I can.

Monday was spent working and then went window shopping. I want the Nikon!

Tuesday was spend with work and with baking prep. After making the above cake for my class, I had to rush off to a Boy Scout meeting. Daily Tuesday life!

The final product on Wednesday! Bugs Bunny cake I decorated.

Thursday afternoon, I found these cupcake displays for $5 each! Such a bargain shopper I am. :)

Friday was spent a time of pampering for me! Nails done!

Saturday was a wonderful end to a good day. Fire place, movie and cuddling with my honey.

I spend most of the time working each week between 2 jobs. It's a busy life but fun. So I try to put up and tell about how each day has something different!


xoxo, T