Restlessness...

There are times where restlessness seams to rule my life. It creeps up on me...and then it soon consumes me. I'm a person that by my own definition, a very stable, straight-forward, nearly perdictable person. I have schedules, and lists. I stick by them. But I usually make sure I schedule out free time. Well I get so busy with everything, I tend to forget about free time. And when that happens the restlessness sets in.

Little signs come. Like wanting to get away sometime soon. Or needing a  drive to someplace, any place. And then the little urges become biger...and biger... until the only thing I can think of is to do something. I'm at that point now. I HAVE to do something. Its no longer a want, its a need. I cannot go forward without getting rid of my current restlessness. Its crazy sometimes but it makes me feel crazy.

I have the plan to go on Monday to the beach...or the coast at least. But that seams so darn far away. I'm thinking of possably going tomorrow. Or friday. Who knows. but the point is that I'm going. I hope, that like every time before, that just the trip and seeing/hearing the ocean will get rid of this restlessness i feel. And it makes everything better. because i can use an "everything is better" moment.

Restless is not able to rest, relax, or be still...for me that is just not a physical thing... but mental and emotional thing. Luckly for me there is a cure!

xoxo, T