Thursday, May 27, 2010


Yes, I write. I write a lot. I like words. I like to talk. And for those that don't know me that well, don't know that I'm back in college again. I am back to trying to finish my BA degree in Business Management, Marketing and PR. I already have my AA in Business Management. So the class I am taking right now is a Psy. class. They have us writing a paper about ourselves. Its our final. So the paper is very importaint. I NEED a good grade on it. I just wish it was on another subject.

I know that a lot of people say writing about one's self is easy to do. I find it difficult. I write about me on my blog, my life, my friends. But its not the whole me. Its not my heart. Its a part but not even my very best friends know that much. No matter how much I talk and write, the heart of me is kept to me. So asking me to open up a part of myself is HARD to do. AND then ask me to anilyze myself on top of Not good. It just asks for trouble to brew up.

So how am I to go about writing my history, present and hopeful future without opening up that part of me to total strangers? I guess that will take creative writing on my part.  A whole lot of editing. Delete key is my friend in this I think. We'll see how it goes. And who knows, it may end up being a blog post up on here. We'll see what the future holds on that account.

xoxo, T

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

What if...

My mind can be a very evil thing some days. On days like today where it has the run's of "What if's" run thru it. Or on days where you have a long talk with an old friend and this friend asks you for advice. Which is why I have the "what if's" going on.

See this friend of mine has been dating here and there...not really steady with anyone. She has her "list" of who she knows is Mr. Right. She has dated her fair share of Mr. Wrong's and I agree that she has a great idea of who her Mr. Right is. But now a monkey has been thrown into the works. One of the few guys she has been dating, we will call him Mr. J, could totally fall under as another Mr. Wrong. He really does not fit onto any of her Mr. Right's must have. But she is enjoying her time with him. And the more she gets to know him, the more she is liking him. The things that would make Mr. J, a Mr. Wrong are not bad things, and not a deal breaker by any means. But he does not fill the Mr. Right terms. So her question to me was.... "Do I give up my list of Mr. Rights must have and go for it with this guy? Or is he just Mr. Right now?"

Wow, what a hard question to answer. Looking back on my many years of dating many different men, I can see why she asked me. Specially sense she knows that I went thur this same thing. The only thing that she did not know was that I went with my "list" and not with my heart. And was forever plagued with the "what if's" of what could have happened. So my advice to her? Date him a while longer... see what happens. If she is really and truely happy then fine, go ahead and go solo with just him. But make sure its right. List are there for a starting point, and sometimes they need to be thrown out.

Me, on the other hand, live on my list. Its so easy to tell others what they should do, but not follow it yourself. But then again, I have to be dating someone. Of which I am not. I'd like to think if I was ever in the situation again, that I would know to throw out the list, rather than give up the guy. But we'll see how much I have grown, if that was to ever happen again.

xoxo, T

Friday, May 14, 2010

The "Power" outfit....

What is the Power outfit? You know the outfit that no matter what you are doing, you feel in control. The one where you know all eye's are on you and you are confident. The one that you feel down right sexy in and comfortable all at the same time. No worries about... "Oh, is my boob falling out?"...."I think you can see that little roll of fat there"... The outfit that hides your flaws, makes you look like a star out there.

I have thought about this subject all day. What is my power outfit? I thought I knew what it was, and then it was not. Is it possable to have more than one? Or have I not found the true Power outfit yet? My choices, as I see them are the following:

1. the dress: there is this dress I bought a while back... its a black and white, form fitting, and I feel amazing in it. Sexy and smart all at the same time. Sometimes uncomfortable, mostly because I'm not use to wearing dresses anymore.

2. The "I'm asking for it Shirt"... or at least that is what i'm calling it. Its a fun, flirty shirt. Cut a bit low in the front, halter style shirt. goes great with jeans or dress pants. or even shorts. I dont have a picture of me in it yet, that is coming soon. But its does what I call for it to do. haahaa

3. New shirt I bought... nice little black tank, gathered at the chest it gives a low-cut look, but looks great at the same time. So comfortable with a nice pair of jeans. my cute little boots to go with and its a outfit that leaves men staring (so I saw today because I wore it today).

I'm sure there is other outfits of mine that I could name off but these are the top 3 that I cannot figure out which one is my Power Outfit. I only have the picture of the dress (and that was taken a few months back). The others there is no pictures of at the moment.

So basied on the discriptions....what would you call the power outfit here? And what is yours?

xoxo, T