Writing Cont.....

One would think after I just spent the last 5 hours writing straight that I would have nothing more to say. HAHA! That is funny. But really, I'm blogging about writing! Irony there. This paper that I'm working so hard on for my Psy class for school, is on me. Which I did talk about in my previous blog. And I did mention my last blog that the delete key would be my friend. It was very friendly. I think I may have overused the poor dear.

The paper is on me. My life. My past. My present. My future as I see how it should go. Should be a cake walk paper. And most people out there would say it is. Not me. Its one of the hardest papers to write. See I have had a very, ummm, shall we call it, challenging life? Even that word cannot convay how hard, complicated, difficult, ect my past has been. There are things I must edit out of the paper because its just too personal to tell to a stranger. Those things are too personal to even tell my best friends.

I laugh off my childhood. I make a joke out of how things were back then. Its easier for me to talk about it like its no big deal. But I tell you it was and is a big deal. There are things (multipul) that happen back then that to this very day, this very post, affect me. Your past shapes who you become. There are things I know that needed to happen in order to be the person I am today. But there are things that happened that I sure in hell wish did not. I could have gone my whole life and not have had about 70% that has happened before been gone. I think if it did not happen I would be happier. I would be healthier for sure.

Even though I am not saying what happened, I'm sure you, the reader, can get how seriouse this is, and why I cannot write about it for a Term paper in college. I have had a whole lot of people tell me I should write a book on my life. I keep saying maybe I will. It would make for a good read I think. But I would have to make it sound fiction, because having my life story out there for the world to read and be able to tie it right back to me, would be too much to bear. But its worth considering.....right? Thoughts?

xoxo, T